Gratitude Reflection Day (what day is it?)…

I’ve lost track of what day it is. I know it’s Thursday, but how many days I have been reflecting on gratitude? I think it’s day 11, although I missed a few days in between…

Jan Richardson in her wonderful book, “Night Vision” reflects on this season, from Advent to Epiphany. She begins week two speaking about desire. She says, “Each year in the fall, the voices being clamoring to tell us what we want. We cannot go shopping, read the newspaper, listen to the radio, or watch television without being told what will make our holidays complete…We rail at the commercialism of Christmas even as we sometimes get caught up in it.”

“But the voices will never tell us about what we really want, what we really long for, what we desire with heart and soul. Those who have sat in the darkness know how the shadows give way to desire. Without sight, without our heads swimming with the images of what others tell us we want, we can turn our gaze inward and search our souls. What speaks to us? What calls to us? What dreams have we buried? What wounds cry out for healing? What longs to be born in us in this season? What is the yearning which we have not dared to name? Or desires reveal to us what we think about God, about ourselves, and about the world.”

She then goes on to quote Janet Morley from her book of prayers, All Desires Known. Morley writes, “I understand the Christian life to be about the integration of desire; our personal desires, our political vision, and our longing for God. So far from being seperate or in competition with one another. I believe that our deepest desires ultimately spring from the same source.”

This Advent season is for me a time of reflecting on desire. What does my heart hope for, what does my soul desire? Today I am really grateful that my life is slow. It seems I worked really hard for a few weeks, and now I find myself at a lull. It’s only temporary. But I am grateful for the time to stop. To be. To watch the snow fall. To drink a cup of tea. To read. To wait…and in the waiting to, perhaps, find my heart’s desire and a prayer answered.


About Terri C Pilarski

I am an Episcopal priest serving a delightfully progressive, interesting, creative congregation. I have been married more than half my life to the same man. We have two grown children, plus two dogs and two cats, although the number of four legged household members changes from time to time. I love to garden, knit, read, and play on Facebook or with my blog. I have been a practitioner of daily meditation since I was nineteen. I practice yoga five days a week and walk every where I am able too.
This entry was posted in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink.

11 Responses to Gratitude Reflection Day (what day is it?)…

  1. i was speaking with a friend today about desire… they were asking what it is i desire in ministry, how do i desire to be defined in ministry… tough questions. deep reflection. funny how the spirit moves, although geographically apart – the spirit has us on the same page.

  2. Katherine E. says:

    Oh, lovely, lovely post.

  3. Katherine E. says:

    Meant to also say Yes, mompriest, I’d love to write something for your feminist theology blog. I read the entries there and love them! Are there guidelines? deadlines? 🙂

  4. mompriest says:

    oh cool katherine e. I’m coming over to see if you have an email address….

  5. mompriest says:

    HC, funny how life can have a sense of synchronicity…I have some delicious tea, wanna come over? (I do get a kick out of the idea that we could have tea or something..well, even though we can’t’cuz we live several states away…but still, if we could)…

  6. Kievas says:

    Enjoy the lull, while it lasts 🙂

  7. Jan says:

    This is so beautiful. You certainly have a gift for expressing deep desires and thoughts. Also, sorry I haven’t written or looked at the feminist blog or blogged much lately–you know how time runs away this time of year. Thinking of you though.

  8. RevDrKate says:

    “What does my soul desire?” What a wonderful question…I am so longing for a lull. Trying to wrap up a whole bunch of things to get there….I hope! This was a wonderful refelction, loved the quotes.

  9. Diane says:

    I was going to say the same as revdrkate: what does my heart desire is such a great question. and I love Janet Morley’s book…

  10. Rev SS says:

    Beautiful, thoughtful post.

  11. I would like a lull for Christmas. Enjoy yours to the max.

Leave a Reply

Please log in using one of these methods to post your comment: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s